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Yesterday night, I have been feeling gloomy and stressed. Actually it has been for days. And it is still there.

I have been scared of my result. I feel I didn’t study well for my last exam. I didn’t feel I did the exam well. That feeling has been lingering all the way, but I tried to push it away. So here I am a few days until the result is revealed. The feeling came back and it is grabbing my heart tight. I really hoped that I could pass, but that feeling of me not doing the exam well just cannot set me free. I need to pass my exam so I can pass the unit. This is my second time doing the unit, if I fail it again it’s done, I am terminated from my course. If it does happen, I really don’t know where I am going to go. I wish I could just throw away everything and start everything from zero, from scratch, from the very bottom. But I couldn’t. I have reached this far not alone, but with some help here and there. I cannot throw away everything, I owe people from helping me and so I cannot leave them watching me falling.

I prayed. I prayed again. And again. I prayed to my God who is glorious, loving and forgiving. I prayed if he could let me pass my unit. He is the owner of all, He has the power to do anything. He is just yet kind. I was trying to feel the assurance, when I read my devotion this morning. All humans fall short of the law, thus He sent His Son to made it up, so everyone who believes will be saved by their faith. I really wish my God could save me with my education too. I fell short, and I hope He could save me.

So tonight, I need some comfort. Just like the one I saw in the drama Cinderella Step-sister. Where Hyo Seon put her trust in Ki Hoon. On the first episode she said this to Ki Hoon when she got into trouble losing one’s ring:

“If you say the moon is square, I think it is.

If you say salt is sweet and candy is salty, I probably drink salt water and spit out the candy.”

“Because you said I would find that ring, I don’t think I lost it.”

– Hyo Seon, Cinderella Step Sister ep 1.

Then she said it again somewhere in the middle or near the end of the drama, she asked Ki Hoon to say everything is going to be ok. Because in her mind, she trusts what Ki Hoon says.

It is that kind of comfort I wish I had. That time Ki Hoon didn’t say everything is going to be alright but he said that they can work something out. It is this kind of saying I wish to hear. Saying there is going to be a way out of this problem.

Tell me that it’s going to be okay. It’s going to be fine. There is a solution.


Maybe not…

Just stay beside me. I think it would be enough….

“Tonight, I’m afraid of being alone.”

“Today I’m just not strong at all
I just want to listen to the lullabies you sing for me”

I’ll finish this with a cute video of Ric-Syung moment…

내 옆에 있어,좀… (Stay by my side, please…)



[K-Drama] Reply 1997

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Title: 응답하라 1997 / Reply 1997 / Respond 1997 / Answer Me 1997
Genre: Romance, comedy
Episodes: 16
Broadcast network: TvN
Broadcast period: 24 July 2012 to 18 September 2012

This is my personal view of the drama so please note that this review might be subjective. Beware of spoilers!


The reasons of watching: Menu! >.< Menu suggested me this drama.

I was not a big fan of “rookie” groups (I supposed it is not appropriate anymore to call Infinite, A-Pink and Seo In Guk a rookie. But I was not that interested to know them until I watch this drama). It was even so hard to find a subbed video of the whole drama. But Menu told me where it is. 😀


I can say I can relate to this drama quite well. 🙂 Firstly I am a kpop fan, which directly relate to the main character Song Shi Won. And lately I am digging into the first generation Kpop, the H.O.T, Sech Kies, G.O.D, Shinhwa, S.E.S, Baby V.O.X, and their kind. (Mostly Shinhwa though). So that’s why I can relate because I kinda know the songs and the members and stuffs.

The drama itself is kinda different. It didn’t go by chronological time. Instead it has a theme in each episode and enfolds the story behind it in the past time. It is so hard to explain and describe this. -_-” 

Second relation happened when they picture Shi Won going to study to Seoul (She’s from Busan and the whole drama mostly happened in Busan). I am a student studying overseas from a little town in Indonesia. *_* Not just stopping here, in the alumni meeting, they tease each other that they are using Seoul dialect because they all used to speak in Busan dialect. I did have this experience. -_- My dad always told me not to speak in Javanese dialect because if I became “big” person, people will laugh at me. And so when I moved to Perth and meet Indonesian people who are mostly from Jakarta/Bandung, I tried to speak “normal” Indonesian, and I did well. So in the early days I started talking using Jakarta dialect, people who were used to hearing me speak in Javanese always say I sound weird. -_- *sigh*

But I don’t have a relation to the deep friendship like in the drama, which is ssoooooo making me jealous. 😡 I don’t have a romantic relationship either. *sobs*

Overall, this is a drama that I can enjoy, but I completely understand if it may not be great drama to others. After all, most drama can get you engaged when the story or the actors/actresses are interesting. So if you cannot relate to the story and you don’t find the actors/actresses amusing, it may be hard to like it.  But for me the story itself is engaging because I can relate to in many aspects. For actors/actresses wise, this drama has these idols: Hoya of Infinte; A-Pink’s Jung Eun Ji; the winner of SuperStar-K, Seo In Guk and the leader of Sech Kies, Eun Ji Won (Insert a cheerleading/fan-girling moment). Not to mention the all the famous cameos I know: Shin Bong Sun, Jung Ju Ri, Kim Tae Won, Tony An, Kim Gook Jin, Im Si Wan, Yoon Hyun Bin, Yang Se Hyung, and more! Add more glimpses of old Kpop clips and lots of Kpop songs in the background. To be honest, I cannot recognise the real OST of this song because there are just a lot of Kpop song in the background as well as filling the moments of the drama itself. 

I wish to insert a part about Eun Ji Won. It is just so hilarious because Eun Ji Won is Sech Kies leader and there are parts where Sech Kies is shown in the drama. The awkward moment when Eun Ji Won as Hak Can watching Eun Ji Won as himself. LOL! And also Hak Can and Yoo Jung is somehow like Pil Suk and Jason in Dream High 1. They are not the main character but they are an amusing couple to follow. 🙂

4 Parts that made me cry! (not in any order, just the order I remembered it…)

1. The time when Shi Won really cried because his father got stomach cancer. It was a really touching scene because most of the time the family is always fighting and shouting at each other, seems like not respecting each other, but at this time all of them tries to be strong but they couldn’t. They can only hang on to each other.

2. When Yoon Jae ran to save Shi Won from the stalking man. I cried because at that time, he was avoiding Shi Won. He tried really hard to be cool. But he still couldn’t stop himself from thinking and caring about Shi Won. He was panicking and urgently ran and he didn’t care about himself and only thought of Shi Won.

3. Shi Won leaving for Seoul. Shi Won really cried when she had to go to Seoul. I cried because I thought of myself. I still remember clearly I was to excited of going abroad that I didn’t greet and say good bye properly to my family. I remembered someone told me, behind my back they were crying. T.T This made me cry!! OK NEXT!

4.Yoon Jae confessed his love and everything and decide not to see Shi Won again. It is just a heart breaking scene. It is a MUST see scene. T.T

Ending: Loved the ending. The whole drama has quite a few twists here and there but it ended beautifully. 🙂



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